props to mahalakshmi, for these aesthetically pleasing clicks!!!!!!

how !!!! long !!! has !!!! it !!!! been !!!! i'm super stoked to be back with this look and i really hope you enjoy it as much as i did creating it.

so far, this year has been that of introspection and self-growth and i'm extremely grateful for it having been so. i practiced meditation every night, took care of my skin and hair religiously (look at the length we have here!) and kept myself hydrated. smack in the middle of all this, a few days prior to this shoot, lana del rey dropped her album (lust for life), which inspired a lot of these pictures and ultimately, the title of this post too.

i'm wearing a tank top from pull&bear with a pair of mom jeans that i recently purchased from forever 21. i paired this with a pair of laced up boots from call it spring.

the eye makeup was last minute and it was entirely experimental. you'll need a pale pink shade as a base and then it's pretty much all about layering and blending – as is the case for any smokey, messy, grungy look. go for an orange transition shade as your crease color and a chocolate brown in the outer corner of your eye. BLEND AWAY. i used my l'oréal la palette in ombrée and colourpop eyeshadow palette in chic-y to get this look. for lipstick, i wore speed dial by colourpop (which, i think i'm running out of lol.)

yeah, that's about it. the title of this post is borrowed from one of my favorite tracks off the album. 13 beaches talks about lana escaping the paparazzi at the beaches and how it took her thirteen beaches to finally find one that's empty, eventually setting her free. this year has done me just that. it has helped me come to terms with a lot of who i am. i walked away from things that no longer served me in any way. i grew out my locks. stayed up multiple times at an hour when everyone was asleep. just because, in lana's own words, "i've been dying for something real." and i may have found it after all this while, in my solitude. my 13th beach.